1 Month, 5 Days

Part of me doesn't write because I am frustrated, the other part because I am overwhelmed and also lazy.

The last month has got to be one of the toughest food-wise.

After the two weeks of liquid diet, I went on to two weeks of pureed. I will say I definitely cheated, as I didn't puree EVERYTHING! But all in all, the pureed diet went pretty well. Lots of yogourt, lots of soup, lots of eggs and cheese.

So, being the gutsy lady I am I decided to try and dabble in a bit of solids.. I tried out different meats in different ways; chicken was cooked in liquid for hours in the oven until tender, beef was cooked with potatoes until tender, fish was cooked until just done to ensure it wasn't dry or chewy, ham was cut thin, shrimp were barely cooked.. And after all that effort, I'm not sure if I've been able to keep ANY of those down.

Because the connection to from your "pouch" to your intenstine is only the size of a dime, meats have to be finely ground up (by your teeth) to make sure they even pass through that hole.. I'm fairly certain I've chewed and chewed and chewed until I've probably developed TMJ, but none of these meats go down at all. Now if I put some fish on a cracker, ta daa! I can swallow it!!
Saltine crackers are my drug of choice. Most things I put ontop of a saltine cracker tend to end up going down, but there's only so many things you can put ontop of there!

And to be truthful, after a while you get pretty sick of experimenting, and then vomiting away all of your hard work. So for the moment, I've pretty much given up until I see my dietitian. I live off of crackers, cheese, eggs, protein shakes, milk, more cheese... oh, peanut butter, sugar-free jam (both of which just go ontop of crackers), and sometimes bananas..

I am disinterested in food, and completely disinterested in eating.. Which at the moment is bad, because this soon after surgery you are never hungry- meaning if you aren't interested in food, you don't eat, and I can go a very long time without eating!!

Yesterday I ate:

5 saltines with peanut butter at breakfast- 9am

One bite of pickle (which got stuck), and a few spoons of soup -vom'd up because the pickle got stuck- 3pm

one shrimp from a shrimp ring- vom'd -6pm

5 crackers and cheese- 8 pm


This is why I haven't written much. I have nothing nice to say. I have an appointment with the dietitian tomorrow, and hopefully she kicks my ass and tells me to work harder to eat.

Todays weight- 247